Seriously, she questions why she is required to print emails for me and said something along the line of how some other secretaries have been commenting how they think the associates are being lazy when they make their secretaries print all the stuff for them. Seriously, that's part of her freaking job scope, it's stated in the guidelines for secretaries and these are the bread and butter of every core legal secretary's job. She was briefed before she joined the firm. What the hell is wrong with her?

She makes tons of mistakes on a day-to-day basis (well almost) and keeps repeating them despite me having told her many times to please be careful. She doesn't care, she patronises me.

She never ever use any of the cover letter templates I've drafted for her and simply just use her own "precedents" from dubious sources. I hate marking up on her freaking documents.

She removes things that my partner has cleared, so now she's better than my partner. Seriously, freaking defiant. Best part is she never tells me when she removes things from my agreements. Can you imagine the extra number of hours I have to put in cumulatively just to check through her freaking work? How hard is it really? Amending a document based on someone's handwritten comments marked on the hard copy of the document. Why can't she just do such simple things right?

She is unreliable, takes like bloody half an hour to print two emails with NO ATTACHMENTS. WHAT THE HELL? She is clearly unhappy that she has to print the emails for me.

She plays games on the internet, surfs the net, calls up her other lazy secretary friend to yak on the phone and yaks on her mobile phone without finishing her work first.

She takes like 3 weeks to a month to prepare a bill. She tells me she is slow. All I see is, a very distracted and lazy individual who just won't pull her socks up and resigns to the fact that she is just slow and today, by her own admission, said it's just her, she don't know why she makes all these mistakes, sometimes she just can't do the work. ARGH

I've never made her stayed past 6pm and never expected her to.

She is just slow, fellow colleague who shares this secretary with me instructed her to scan the documents for her on monday, can't she just freaking feed the documents in the feed machine and just hit "scan" and let the scanner works its magic? She had to give my colleague the scanned doc only on Friday.

Last but not least, she freaking inadvertently sent a bitching email about me to me.

I am so crossed with her. Know what's the best part? She don't think she's at fault for all of the above. Taking me for a ride. And I have give her a piece of my mind because bloody retarded reason for sending such bitching email to me was given. She either thinks I am retarded or she is. You sent bitch email because you want to improve? Improve my foot!

Sighz, when I tried to switch my secretary, HR told me that they will replace her with some new recruit once I put in the written request. Sadly, I have too much freaking compassion to cause someone lose her job, in particular, a very old woman. Sighz, let's hope she's really terrified of me now after that ferocious scolding. She better, I have zero compassion left.

I hate some of my colleagues. Some of them are heartless people who are always ready to condemn and that's all they really do apart from work. They make me feel like a celebrity, they scrunitise most parts of my life whenever they could and judge me on what they know of me superficially or on a hearsay basis.

It just so happens that I'm falling ill more often than them but is that my fault? No, sorry, my body constitution changed after I read my LLB in the uk and it was then that I was already falling ill quite frequently. Falling ill and taking medical leave does not necessarily mean I stay at home and do nothing! I work from home when I'm too ill to go in and endure the harsh cold air in the office and what's wrong with that!

I have never been an irresponsible employee, I do what I need to and I try to finish what I have to complete on time. I've worked non-stop at times, burnt many of my weekends, dragged myself to the office when it's impossible to stay at home to finish the work and worked from home when I'm on medical leave. How is it that people still can say things such as I'm trying to avoid work or stuff like that? It's just so sickening, it's no wonder why some other people left my firm because of such hostile environment and such evil tongues.

Just recently, I underwent a minor operation that involves excision of some cyst from my left elbow and it was really painful. My wound was infected and I had to go back to my surgeon to remove the sutures, monitor the cut and have the flesh sewn back together again. Now, that's painful. I bet these malicious tongues are wondering and wagging away as to the length of period I've been away from office and all, but fish all of these people, why are you people so free to talk about me and judge me when you guys supposedly have so much work? I don't remember yakking away when I have a lot of work, I remember being glued to my seat the whole day save for toilet trips when I had a lot of work!

End of the day, I don't need to answer to these f***wits because they are not the ones who will be responsible for me if anything goes wrong with me but I hate it that they talk about me in such fashion. Unbearable idiots. If I were them, I'll spend my time on work and get off on time as compared to wasting time yakking away.

I'm quite glad that I've survived first year of my practice (well technically 6 months) and appreciate that there's a lot more to learn in the coming year! I love brand new years, they often give you some hope of changing things for the better, of letting you start some stuff on a clean slate and basically just a really good time to forget all those bad stuff that had happened in the past year and to move on somehow thinking things will become better (although sometimes they don't).

One will realise how insignificant and how small one can actually be in the real world where we have to start making a living for ourselves and take on responsibilities for ourselves. When you are in law school, you often think of yourself as being a free spirit, attacking arguments in every logical way you possibly can and you often think you can do more than just dreaming. Well, the downside of practice is, you soon realise:

1) you are not a free spirit, you have to somehow always cover your own ass, subject / qualify your advice / what you have to say to your clients so as to minimise liability of not just the firm but also yourself; 

2) you are not free to write in whichever way you prefer or think is best; 

3) you don't always think you can do more than what's already on your plate; and

4) the sky is not the bloody limit, the ground probably is. You must be prepared to fall flat on the ground if you push beyond the bloody ground. 

So law school and work's totally different. But well it's fine, hehe ok just a really short post which hopefully would lead to many more other posts! I don't know who else reads this blog but it's not like I write for an audience so see you guys real soon!