I hate some of my colleagues. Some of them are heartless people who are always ready to condemn and that's all they really do apart from work. They make me feel like a celebrity, they scrunitise most parts of my life whenever they could and judge me on what they know of me superficially or on a hearsay basis.

It just so happens that I'm falling ill more often than them but is that my fault? No, sorry, my body constitution changed after I read my LLB in the uk and it was then that I was already falling ill quite frequently. Falling ill and taking medical leave does not necessarily mean I stay at home and do nothing! I work from home when I'm too ill to go in and endure the harsh cold air in the office and what's wrong with that!

I have never been an irresponsible employee, I do what I need to and I try to finish what I have to complete on time. I've worked non-stop at times, burnt many of my weekends, dragged myself to the office when it's impossible to stay at home to finish the work and worked from home when I'm on medical leave. How is it that people still can say things such as I'm trying to avoid work or stuff like that? It's just so sickening, it's no wonder why some other people left my firm because of such hostile environment and such evil tongues.

Just recently, I underwent a minor operation that involves excision of some cyst from my left elbow and it was really painful. My wound was infected and I had to go back to my surgeon to remove the sutures, monitor the cut and have the flesh sewn back together again. Now, that's painful. I bet these malicious tongues are wondering and wagging away as to the length of period I've been away from office and all, but fish all of these people, why are you people so free to talk about me and judge me when you guys supposedly have so much work? I don't remember yakking away when I have a lot of work, I remember being glued to my seat the whole day save for toilet trips when I had a lot of work!

End of the day, I don't need to answer to these f***wits because they are not the ones who will be responsible for me if anything goes wrong with me but I hate it that they talk about me in such fashion. Unbearable idiots. If I were them, I'll spend my time on work and get off on time as compared to wasting time yakking away.

I'm quite glad that I've survived first year of my practice (well technically 6 months) and appreciate that there's a lot more to learn in the coming year! I love brand new years, they often give you some hope of changing things for the better, of letting you start some stuff on a clean slate and basically just a really good time to forget all those bad stuff that had happened in the past year and to move on somehow thinking things will become better (although sometimes they don't).

One will realise how insignificant and how small one can actually be in the real world where we have to start making a living for ourselves and take on responsibilities for ourselves. When you are in law school, you often think of yourself as being a free spirit, attacking arguments in every logical way you possibly can and you often think you can do more than just dreaming. Well, the downside of practice is, you soon realise:

1) you are not a free spirit, you have to somehow always cover your own ass, subject / qualify your advice / what you have to say to your clients so as to minimise liability of not just the firm but also yourself; 

2) you are not free to write in whichever way you prefer or think is best; 

3) you don't always think you can do more than what's already on your plate; and

4) the sky is not the bloody limit, the ground probably is. You must be prepared to fall flat on the ground if you push beyond the bloody ground. 

So law school and work's totally different. But well it's fine, hehe ok just a really short post which hopefully would lead to many more other posts! I don't know who else reads this blog but it's not like I write for an audience so see you guys real soon!